Well , like any other holiday, today was also a fairly dull day. I was languorously sifting through the newspaper when Tushar called me up. He told me IIFT result was out. Suddenly I felt my skin crawling. The drudgery and monotinity of the day would be broken up in such a manner was totally unexpected. As soon as I hung up the phone I immediately logged on and entered the link. Here opens the home page of the site in a flash. I heard myself speaking peevishly “Damn it !!! why the hell it has opened so fast ? Couldn’t it have taken some more time. Maybe hours or days even “. But yeah the fact was the page has opened up and had the link displaying results emblazoned right on the page. As soon as I clicked the link a PDF opened up . “ Why is the net working so fast today ? “ I quipped. Then I went to the search and entered my name. ‘ 0 Results Found !’ was scrawled across the screen.
My heart sank. It skipped a few beats. And suddenly the whole world was spinning around me. Still with a ‘ Never Say Die ‘ bravado I got up wrenched out the IIFT card from the file and came back to the result page. This time I entered my Roll No. in the search box. But to my horror the result was same. Now I found myself fecklessly trawling the list as if my name would conjure up miraculously. Then I heard a voice “Yash this is not a movie going on . Welcome to the real world !! And the truth is you have been nudged out by your competitors (most of whom i dont evn knw) “ . I winced. “Truth is so brutal , After so much of hard work how could the result be so unfavourable. I constantly was among one of the toppers in the AIMCATs “. I thought .’ I bungled up in CAT and now in IIFT too.’
I wanted to cry but couldn’t. May be a screw-up in engineering entrance exams and two failed intial job interviews made a man out of a boy. But still I told myself ‘ Mr. Yash Vardhan you need to concentrate on the destination . The paths could be different. But the destination has to be the same. ‘ What if 1 path is closed many others are still open.” Don’t know if it was truth or a yet again failed attempt to pep up my sagging mood. And then I slept.
What followed since I woke up from an invigorating slumber at 9 pm was even worse. There was a deluge of commiserative remarks.
“ Koi nahi beta ! We know you worked hard “
“ Chalta hai !!!”
“Sill lot to come “
Etc. etc. I wanted to shout at them on top of my voice and say please stop it but cudn’t . I didn’t want to deprive them of this at least.
Now here I am, shaken a bit , but yeah pretty fine,optimistic(as ever ) and yeah I still stand by what I have always believed……..
“ Whatever god does it does for your own sake!!!!”